Until I got more and more upset that I couldn't understand anything! When I focused enough to talk again all I could say is “I have never been this out of my mind!” They just kept laughing and ignoring me. I didn't understand but I got lost in the visions again pretty quickly. Rich looked at me seriously for a second and said “yeah, but you can't think like that” and then started laughing ridiculously. I told them that I felt like I was sensing everything at once, or maybe I was in multiple dimensions at the same time. I told everyone I felt I hadn't been properly prepared for this. I told everyone this and they just laughed at me. I felt like I was in one of those model train set worlds. Then I realized that everything I looked at was far and close at the same time, everything was big and small. It was all beautiful and animated and great. Dragons in the clouds, fairies in the bushes, dinosaurs in the cobblestones. All I knew about hallucinogens was that you saw things. I did no research before hand, I hadn't understood what happened to other people when I heard their stories. I was completely unprepared for what would come. I took one tab, Matt and Rich took one and a half, John took one, bought off of Matt and Rich, and Al took two. It was Monday night, around 11pm.Īlthough I originally planned on only taking half a tab, we all ended up taking extra dosages because the effects took so long to kick in, it was about an hour and a half before we felt anything. It never came, we decided to do what we could and took them the night of Al's birthday, before some of us left the country. John took his three almost immediately, the rest of us were waiting for the right time and place to take them together. Of the ten tabs, I went in on one, John took three, Matt and Al each paid for two and Rich had the last two. We jointly bought a sheet with ten tabs on it through Matt's local friend, we'll call him John. He was older and more experienced and I was a little in love with him. They had all taken acid, shrooms and other psychedelics before. I was very close friends with Matt, Al, and Rich by the time I decided to try LSD with them. It was because of them, and their stories, and their accomplishments, that I decided taking drugs would not screw up my life. I then got a job teaching English abroad where I met a lot of other English teachers, people who thought like me, people who were the most interesting, intelligent, amazing people I had ever met. After being rejected I decided illegal substance use wasn't a big deal anymore. I was the perfect child and student, nothing exceptional, but nothing bad either.Īfter college I applied for the CIA (this becomes important). I probably started doing drugs because I lost interest in following the rules, the established order, that had gotten me nowhere. I didn't even drink much before this year, I don't even like using pain killers and I don't take any prescription drugs. Prior to my first and only LSD experience I had been using marijuana for less than a year and I had tried coke twice, nothing else. My LSD experience was the craziest time of my life.